There have been days, over the past few months, that I want to crawl up into a ball and forget that I have a job. I do not want to get out of bed in the morning. I do not want to take a shower, get in my car and drive to that place, punch in and start my day. I just want to go to school or the caffe or the library. I do not want to have to deal with the never-ending stream of issues that come with being in the customer service field. I have no choice, so I continue to get out of bed, take a shower, drive my car to that place, punch in and start my day.
This week I have decided that since I have no choice in the matter I might as well attempt to make the best of it, while I have to. Until something better comes along, this is what is. So rather than wallowing in self pity or feeling so badly that I cry all the way home from work, I am going to start looking on the bright side.
WHAT? If you know me personally that is probably the word that is screaming in your head right now. Why would I want to look on the bright side? Well – for my sanity I suppose. If I do not start being a positive person nothing will change. I am hoping that the opposite of that last statement is also true. If I start being a positive person everything will change.
This is all fine and good. I can be a positive person in my little corner of the world. I can schluff off all the crap that comes my way on a daily basis. I can pretend that the ways that people speak to me is not a big deal. I can ignore the pettiness and the insecurity of others and chalk it up to the field I am in. The problem, you see, does not lie within the walls of my workplace. The problem lies with the people I know outside of those four walls.
Since I have started this new, positive, outlook I have had several questions from people close to me. Questions such as, “what is up with you?” or “why are you acting so weird?”. C’mon people! I am trying to be positive here. Work with me!
Living in Buffalo, it is nearly impossible to stay on the bright side. There are always people, at every turn, that want to drag you back down into the doldrums of life in the downer city. If you are positive they are
almost always upset with you. Believe me, I have a hard time staying positive. It is nearly impossible when things continue to get worse, but I think that if we just except our fate and be negative all the time nothing will ever change. So this is my plea to everyone. Please try to be positive. And if you cannot be positive yourself, please at least let others who are trying to be, be. I realize that I used to be (and will fall off the wagon many times to return to) negative as well, but this is a new leaf. New leaves are difficult and cumbersome, but in the end they are the best way to move forward.
So, why not join me in turning over this new leaf? There are a few great blogs that I have been reading to get me into the swing of things. Check them out! They may make you become a positive person as well. And do not worry – my cynical sarcasm is still intact, the positivity is only work related. Have a great day and happy protesting!!
Chantale aka hippiegrrl